Wednesday, 13 January 2016

Last of us

Long time no read!!

Today my friend Kiley has left Stirling for Canada, her home country. That makes me the last Alangrange former inhabitant left in Stirling.
That seriously makes me sad.




Chapter ended, for real.


I know the typical saying "a chapter ends and a new one starts", and yes, that is true, and hopefully the next one will be better than the one before, but I can't help being sad for seeing my friends fleeing away and having a new life, all I can do is witnessing that in the distance.


Also, I realised yesterday that I am turning 27 in September. 27, did you read that? That means I will be 30 in 3 more years. I know that 30 is the new 20 and all that, but some years ago my plan was to be married by 27 or 28 and maybe considering having kids by then (when I wanted to do that, so veeeery long ago). It's not the fact that I'm waaaaaaaay far from those plans what bothers me, not having a full time job and that, I don't even want to get married or have kids, but what if I wanted to? What if those were still my plans? That "ME" would be disappointed for not accomplishing those aspirations, and that's a bit upsetting in a way.

But what saddens me the most is AUSTRALIA. If you, reader, knew me a bit, you'd know that AUSTRALIA is my dream. Today I see that dream further than ever, I can see myself being 30 and not having been to Australia even for a visit (although my purpose is to move there for a year or two...) since at the moment I have not a job related to my career nor enough experience to pursue one. Although I promise I'm trying hard!

Just not to make this post a sad one, I'll say that I'm still 26, and I still have 9 months to do many other things I want to do before being 27, and there's plenty of time to gain some more work experience and get THE job that will make me happy and let my dreams come true. So I'll stick to that, and I will that fact drive my future plans, but I'm anyway traumatized for being almost 27! That's a fact!

Thanks for reading my ranting.